I need to remember who I am studying for; myself and my 2 brothers. To get them out of this God forsaken place. (Literally) 

How can anyone be like this? I don't get it. I really don't. I may love the both of you alot, but trust me, you are a living example, of how I do not want to ever be. 

You may not be bad people, but the 2 of you, will never be my role models. 

I know this is a really terrible way to start the very first post of the year but I NEED TO GET WORK DONE. I have effectively wasted my entire weekend. I am too well equipped in this whole running away from Econs thing. I need to get back to doing it. Go van, last few weeks. I need to do this. 

On a sidenote, I have decided to stop rebelling and attend church/cell properly. 

It's an unexplainable feeling but today, in church, before I left, the guy who says the benediction  said something along the lines of 'You are what you are committed to' and somehow, that struck a chord within me.