these two days have been rather awesome!
AWESOME WITH A CAPITAL A.
haha

talent vogue yesterday, it was, to say the least, an eye opener. haha. but it being all in the good name of fun, i guess it was not too bad. haha. throughout the whole performance though,  i had like 2 bodyguards, one on my left and the other on the right, who gave me ZERO sense of privacy. omg, seriously. i couldn't even attempt to leave the place for a while without either following me. but! they are one of the bestest people on earth and i love them both! hahaha.

i guess post talent vogue was when 'FUN' actually became evident. headed to wisma starbucks, ( i know right, i'm the queen of starbucks, oh wait, there's vic. haha) because like i was supposed to get interrogated. haha. but we ended up camwhoring! (pics on fb) love it when i'm out with them. contrarty to popular belief there are actually others who love the camera more than i do. enjoyed yesterday ttmab! (:

today was pretty fun too! haha. watched jennifer's body with jaykay. omg. it was like SCARY. but not that SCARY. i think i'm still able to sleep tonight. hahaha. like, okay, maybe not. i dont know! i think i should stop thinking about the show! i will not watch something like that again. AWESOME, i've got frightful images in my head now. ugh.

but i just don't get it. how can the guys be so silly, to drive to some deserted place which is supposed to be some girl's home. I MEAN HOW DESPERATE FOR SEX CAN YOU ACTUALLY GET. that's like males hormones raging causing them to not be able to think. IF IT WERE ME and i was alone, I WOULD LIKE HAVE LEFT THE PLACE. NOT JUMP THROUGH THE 'GLASS' WINDOW TO ENTER A SCARY LOOKING HOUSE.

omg. hahaha. but company was not too bad (jaykay, be happy and honoured when you read this) so i guess the movie didn't exactly kill me. haha.

met LOW LILI again after that again. and sam too. and sam bought this white esprit bottoms! what he BOUGHT looked rather nice. haha. his words 'flowed with the rest of his outfit.' haha. churched and sushied.

I'M A HAPPY GIRL TODAY (:

FINALLY GOT ROUND TO TALKING TO THE TWIT! (:

hey twit,

i'm so glad in the 2 years stint you had in ACSI, you never did conform to their ways! (:
you are  mightily awesome, lame, silly, bimbotic, ridiculous, crazy, wonky, weird and to top it all of, one of the most sensible friend i can ever have. study hard for IB! i'm so sure you will do superbly! try not to become weirder with all the studying though. hahaha.

TWITS FOREVER.

*okay, i know you are going to murder me with the uploading of this pic, but you're wearing shades noone can actually see who you are*

that is about how the state of my room is - in a mess! haha. oh well. mummy says i'm living in a sty, maybe she's right. but not a sty! that is like an exaggeration. haha. i'm sure it is.

on a side note. i kinda like this bed. haha. see that crown up there? hahaha. but the bed looks pretty sad. i dont know, or maybe its just me being a little out of sorts. haha.

MY OP SCRIPT IS LIKE KINDA DONE? so yay me! (:
i just realised that students of this country unite for basically 2 things. 1. exams. 2. peedoublewww.
PATHETIC. SERIOUSLY. ugh.

today was a not too good day. sorry for saying that. i guess i wasn't all that sensitive about it. but yupp, oh well. maybe i shan't continue anymore. hope you're not too upset about it. love your friend! (:

We Believe
Good Charlotte

There’s a woman crying out tonight
Her world has changed
She asks God why
Her only son has died
And now her daughter cries
She can’t sleep at night

Downtown another day for all the suits and ties
Another war to fight
There’s no regard for life
How do they sleep at night
How can we make things right
Just wanna make this right

We believe(x6)
In this love

We are all the same
Human in all our ways and all our pains
(So let it be)
There’s a love that could fall down like rain
(Let us see)
Let forgiveness wash away the pain
(What we need)
And no one really knows what they are searching for
(We believe)
This world is crying for so much more

We believe(x6)
In this love

We believe(x5)
In this love

So this world is too much for you to take
Just lay it down and follow me
I’ll be everything you need
In everyway

We believe(x6)
In this love

In this love
We believe
In this love
We believe
In this love
We believe
In this love

thanks sam for that pretty pink thing! you're awesome today! hahaha.

OP first rehearsal today! it was terrible, to say the least, got to start working on my script proper already. cant afford to embarrass myself tomorrow. haha. omg, jinkai i cant believe you actually did that during your OP. haha.

tried to play ping pong, or table tennis as they call it. and obviously, anything that involves such small balls and me dont exactly work out. no coordination. KIM YOU'RE AS AWESOME PING PONG PARTNER. neither of us can play! hahahaha.

back to OP. i need to shop. mummy, i need you! *swipe swipe*


oh and to whoever who reads, seriously whoever, please do tag! (: its quite scary seeing the counters jump so much without any tags! haha. 

will: the woman i fell in love with could never give up on anybody

will: that's right, i love you megan smith, deal with that.

PRIVILEGED's willmegan has officially became sweeter than GG's chuckblair (:





Happy Ending 


This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together.

CEDAR 4Z'S VANESSA   says:
 THANKS HUR THANKS
 OMG

shanna ♥ says:
 i seriously cant stop laughing
 you're such a joke
 but cute one
 (:
 and yes, ***'s a boy
 WHY LISTEN TO A....BOY?!

CEDAR 4Z'S VANESSA   says:
 OMG
 HAHAHAHA
 I TRUST THIS BOY

shanna ♥ says:
 BOYS
 EW

twin. you are so funny. hahaha.

Siyun says:
 yeah i know
 anywayyyyyyyy
 my father thinks you were "cool" today
 HAHA.


CEDAR 4Z'S VANESSA   says:
 hahahahaha
 omg. no joke man. hahahhaha

Siyun says:
 yeah
 but then right
 when you said the car plate number that time
 i didn't really understand
 haha


CEDAR 4Z'S VANESSA   says:
 DONT WORRY, I DIDNT UNDERSTAND EITHER. I WAS LIKE UM, OKAYYY
 hahaha

when caring for you is so much more important, i know i will still do it even if it means getting hurt. 


TODAY WAS AWESOME CRAP. 

the irony of it all. hahaha. anyway, emceed in the morning. ohemgee. the speaking was rather fun if not freaky. but i was oh so bored backstage, thank goodness for my awesome phone with wondrous messaging capabilities. hahaha. sustained me. zomg, i wanted to die of boredom. seriously.  but some speakers were really funny. 'ecorn?' like what in the world is that! hahaha.


VIC's message really got me less nervous. ' Haha, yes honey, moderate your speed. you sound sweet over the mic! don't waste that. see you later love.'  isnt she awesome? heart you much! <3


peedoubleww briefing with groupies after emceeing, stayed back for a while, discussed some OP stuff, headed to parkway for fro yo (my staple food) with the 'i'm vic chan' girl hahah. had lots of stupid talk, random walk around parkway, which of course concentrated mainly in DIVA, (TOPSHOP AND DOROTHY PERKINS DISAPPEARED!) coupled with frequent lamentations on how we dont get sub cards, only to realise why seconds later when we were about to buy the whole shop down. (exaggerating, but you get the idea!) totally made my day. haha.

waited for that sam choo to end cheer. but at least he went to parkway to find me. but got verbally abused the whole journey. some friend right. hurry pity me! then he started talking rubbish, making me do something so stupid, but somewhat apparently sensible. haha. i feel silly and foolish. oh well, whatever. you dumb choo. HAHA.

YVONNE NG LING RONG! YOU ROCK MY SOCKS. i'll think through what you told me, but i'm prepared for it. i have been thinking about this for a really long time. and i want you to know how impt it is for me to get your 'approval' (in some sense) for this! (:

daddy's flying off to florida tomorrow for a week ): i'll miss him. noone to fetch me to and fro school! mummy will be too busy helping carman with exams. BIG SIGH!!! and he's leaving for london again later. i think my parents are secretly abandoning all of us. they keep going away! and we're not even invited to go to that island with them! ): hmph. somewhere near for you kids so my mummy speaks.

I'M AS COOL AS WOOL AND SO ARE YOU!

well said. but i still miss you. alot in fact. 

i thank God i passed promos.
even though i knew retaining would never ever be an option for me, but considering when i started studying in contrast to my other friends. gosh, i should feel ashamed of myself and yes i am. oh wells, no empty promises, i will, can and must do it. (:

i dont like it how you have so little faith in me. just because i'm not performing up to standard doesn't mean what you say is what i have to take on. get it? i know you are only telling me that for my own good, but dont speak to me as if you have known me for a really long time. i know myself better than you know me, so if you dont have any idea of my capabilities maybe you should take 2 steps back, oh no you better make that 3. i dont want to scare you off too badly when i actually do perform.

spent 3 over hours rehearsing tomorrow's script with norman! hahaha. it was quite fun. all those chinese names. not easy, but i think i've mastered it relatively well. i'm cool! AS COOL AS WOOL! hahahaha. okay, i know. stupid much. but seriously, whatever. hahaha. i like it. I'M COOL AS WOOL. hahaha. okay, cheap thrill right. hahaha.

OMG. i'm quite scared for tomorrow's emceeing. it has been  2 years since i've done smth like that. i feel as if i have lost touch with the emceeing scene. breathe vannn! breatheee. not working. haha. okay, at least this is in english. if it were in mandarin. ohnooo, you wouldnt want me up there. hahaha. OKAY, I'VE OFFICIALLY GOT BUTTERFLIES IN MY STOMACH. ACK!

and best friend, i'm proud of you! yay you! i was really honestly happy when you called to tell me the news (: i told you you could do it! (: the next hurdle, A's. NOW, FOR CEDAR DURING THE DEC HOLS <3 awesome much. i'm a happy and satisfied girl today. XOXO YOU DINO. hahahaha.