I don't understand why you have to constantly mess with my head and bring everything right up again. It hurts not because I still care, but because I know how foolish it was and considering how you are my mother I expected you to at least be able to respect that. I know what I did, believing that you did scold her, was wrong and I have been actively trying to repair that broken bridge but what hurts the most is knowing that you keep holding on to that one incident, tormenting me with the prospect that I am such a terrible daughter, not really giving what we have a chance.  I loathe how the mere mention of whatever happened can reduce me to this state, and I know I am not being fair to myself/K because I am in this really good place, feeling perfectly contented and happy but it still doesn't hide the fact that it hurts so very much.

Only putting this onto my blog just so that all of you guys can hold me accountable for my weight loss. Have been eating at an uncontrollable rate, been gorging my face with marshmallows!! That airy, sticky, pillowy goodness. How can anyone not like them?? Wished Singapore had a weight watchers programme, I would sign up with them pronto. 

I shall stop eating marshmallows. I shall keep a record of what I put into my mouth.