Australia 'Farm Raised Lamb'

 Blackmore Wagyu

 Blackmore Wagyu Patty. Bacon smashed|Peppered Gravy

 St Louis 'Fingering' Pork Rib. Cajun Fat Chips| Vintage BBQ glaze

 Prawn 'Fleur de Sel'. Mango Ensalada| Chilli lemongrass Drizzle

Celebrated daddy's birthday at Pan Pacific. Oh dear, with so many things happening over the past few days/weeks I have been mightily preoccupied I completely forgot about daddy's birthday. Anyway, 

♥ Happy Birthday Dad ♥

I look extremely disastrous in these pics. My face is like bloated and I am so pissed. Inflammed lymphnode that is what the doctor said. Feels so ugh-ed :/

And today I dreamt that this tutor whom I never know I had had this house right above the old trafford stadium and he brought me down this winding staircase through his house onto the platform where you know the players make their grand entrance?? It was majorly exhilirating but I just had to wake up. Hahahaha. 

Past few days have been really great and I am really thanking God for that (: (: Today is lit and history day! Finally a day without Econs!!! (: (: Can you sense the immense amount of relief and excitement that I am announcing this with? Haha.

Anyway, I have decided that since I haven't gotten down to getting my oven repaired. [SOMEONE PLEASE REMIND ME] The only other therapy I am ever going to get, apart from retail [which is also not that healthy haha] is to cook! So I made this awesome chicken stew with Korean noodles which is really healthy. Carrots, potatoes, onions, celery, basil leaves, salt, greenfield milk and chicken! The satisfaction I got from doing this, while definitely not the same as that when I bake, can be considered a close second. Haha. 

Mummy said it made her get her appetite back! :D

I shall attempt to make almond/walnut crusted salmon/chicken with broccoli puree and asparagus for lunch!

BACK TO WORK LOVES. 

P.S. Shall work out today! (: 

-edited-
'Almond Crusted Salmon with Asparagus over Lemon zested Cheesecake low fat Yoghurt puree'
Different from what I initially intended.

Trust me, it was really good. Hahaha. 

Okay this dream is totally not making any sense, I just realized. Haha. Anyway, somehow, the next scene I remembered was that I was in a truck with everyone else safely making our way out. Then somehow I ended up in church in this white overalls with like lotsa blood. 

And then all of a sudden again, I found myself by a pool side witnessing some crazy man rummaging through the kids backpacks and dumping the children into the pool?!?! What is wrong with this guy/my head seriously. Then all of a sudden without warning he disappeared?? And out from nowhere I found myself diving into the pool to save the children but like my white overalls didn't allow me to sink into the depths of the pool! And I had to take this really huge breathe and swim straight down, like a little more than just beneath the surface and grab the child. But the worst part was there was this child who was bleeding!! :( :( So finally, after managing to bring her to the surface, I saw their swimming instructor and asked him to call the ambulance/get gauze/antiseptic. Can't remember which, but I think it's gauze and he just shrugged it off like it was nothing and his nonchalance really irritated me and I boxed him. Then I shouted to another to get the girl medical equipment. 

Then all of a sudden I found myself transported back to church,  and it wasn't Riverlife. Didn't recognize the sanctuary  Weird thing was we were singing national day songs in church? I don't exactly remember doing that. Haha. And there were my CT council juniors in church too? They were in some room doing the deco. Hahahaha okay my dream is so mixed up. Haha. The most surprising thing was that I remembered seeing Xin Da and Edwin Soh coming through the doors of the sanctuary in their green army uniform dripping with sweat. And I vaguely remembered thinking, wow I can't believe they want to come to church so badly. In fact the weirder thing should be that I have not spoken to Edwin since Primary 6 and Xin Da and I aren't close so now, I'm thinking, why dream of them. 

So after this 'service' I ended up in some canteen look alike, where I met Tung Ling's Dean and she was telling us of all the food gifts that she has received over the years and how she has preserved them through taking pictures and later blowing them up, pasting them around the area. Hahaha. And then I met Clarence and Uncle James, Aunty Lily, Uncle David and Aunty Eileen and all of a sudden I was whisked away by my parents. Managed to catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror and commented to Shernice who suddenly appeared on my left on how I was so horrified by my reflection. HAHAHAAHAHAHAHA. Weird dream max. 

Getting hit by one crisis after another is really no joke. I need the strength to carry on with the rest of the week, I need to know all will be well. It is really so tough having to constantly see everything on the brink of breaking. Headaches, heartaches, tears, pains, everything is in a mess. And that is really why I can never let anyone into my heart anytime soon. I can't let anyone else share this intense burden of family drama happening E.V.E.R.Y single second of my life. 

P.S. And ofc many many thanks to Ian Kwek, Kaur, and Vonnie dearest for being so awesome yesterday! <3 

That's a reminder to myself to keep going (:

After a very tiring 5 hours of rushing to and fro Mount Elizabeth and Paragon Medical, we ended up having a semi feast at Bakerzin which started off pretty healthy with glass noodle salad and mushroom bruschetta (which was absolutely phenomena) but ending everything off with a crazy calories packed iced chocolate. D: And a slice of cake which mummy and I shared but I just felt too damn guilty to even eat half. 

Then mummy had to go get some stuff so we ended up having to go shopping, note, I didn't plan it. Really. I had these amazing chunk of work waiting not so idly at home for me and I was rather desperate to get back to it. Especially with prelims 6 WEEKS away [Bless My Soul!!!], and my future on a rather thin line. Anyway, mummy ended up buying a dress??!! Wanted/Needed to get something from Poise but we were in a rush so I guess we will be back there some other time. Didn't know mummy's friend owned Poise. The gowns there are nothing short of amazing and of course very pricey, but really worth the price I would say. I think this season is really about loud bold colours. Saw a few pieces that I totally adored. If I can find the pics I will post them up! Tried on a few clothing from Monsoon but I really wasn't in the mood to buy anything. 

Finally reached home at 5 plus, was completely exhausted and ended napping for an hour. I am so sorry I don't know why I am giving a blow by blow account of my entire day. Haha. Finally got started on work, but guilt was overwhelming me and I just had to go exercise. Seriously, this guilt tripping thing works way too easily for me. Haha. SO FINALLY, AFT LIKE A SUPERLONG HIATUS, I FINALLY GOT MY BUM OUT OF MY ROOM TO EXERCISE. Treadmill, crunches machine and weights. PROUD OF MYSELF. Please praise me!!!!! Hahaha. I shall do it again tomorrow. I will will myself to enjoy this arduous process of running on a treadmill and feel like a hamster :/ Don't you all get that feeling too?? Haha. 

Anyway it's back to Econs as usual (: 3 more essays on Trade and then hopefully if I still have any energy left, I will do demand and supply too (: 

 This MASSIVE bar of chocolate with marshmallows and caramel and white chocolate which really spells out PURE SIN was devoured by my brother in like 10 seconds. To which he exclaimed with much vengeance that he hated Alex, all because A bought that bar of chocolate. Hahaha. 

 I told him I wanted weather in a bottle hahahaha and he got for me sand in a bottle. Sand from Aussie!! Their pretty white beaches. Can't wait to go there. Hopefully I can visit Su Xin and Caile too <3 

 Well while I was Mandee for that mere 10 mins, my brother somehow managed to come up with this ingenious idea of insulting me. But he's cute so I will let it pass. Haha.

And this! Hahaha. He used the chop that my bestie YVONNIEEE bought for me and decorated this TJ notepad. Hahaha. 

Omgoodness and friends who have been laughing at me all because of 10 dollar note incident, which was really a one off thing, I somehow think that that kinda 'innocence', as I would choose to believe, runs in the family. My youngest brother and I were talking and he suddenly turned to me in complete awe and was like do you know that the curry in curry puff isn't liquidy? It's like solid. And I just stared at him in complete disbelief, and for that split second I could feel how Yvonne/Shernice felt whenever I had those moments. 

6 more weeks to my first checkpoint. Major frights. 

But I will have faith.  

Love love love these songs! Adele has a very beautiful voice <3 Love this girl! 

Not that I no longer have a problem deciding what to wear. Cos come to think of it, it is an even bigger hassle now. The good kind though (: Today's been a really stressful day. I only have 16 more weeks and I am only just done with macro. And that is just content and some essays. I need to do more. Tuition was pretty crazy today. 8 essays as hwk and that's only for econs. 4 for International History. But at least it is on global economy which I absolutely love. I can't wait to do essays on the Asian Financial Crisis! (: But for now I'm still on political structures, which is supposed to be a rather easy topic, but I don't exactly fancy it. And there's ASEAN and UN SBQ content to cover. I need to make this right, I need to understand and internalize everything. And I am pretty on track with Taming, CAD, Disgrace, getting a better grasp of Richard the Third, haven't really touched Top Girls. I need to know how to effectively study literature. It's killing me. GP's been pretty alright I guess. Need to nail a consistent 6/7 marks for AQ. Hate it that I'm straggling in the 5/6 marks band. On days like these, I wished I stuck to KI and wrote that damn side project. Boo. And essays omgoodness, need to brush up on my facts. A good consolidation of everything by myself would really do me good. And then there's math, I need to maintain, but somehow I don't really know if I am slacking off too much. Haven't been focusing too much on it, especially since it is kind of like my strongest subject now, the irony. Life is really an irony don't you think. (: I need to get through these 16 weeks.

And to my dearest friends, please don't be upset that I can't meet up with you guys now especially those who are heading overseas and most definitely my VJ friends. I know I haven't met up with you guys since March? But I really need all the time I can get now and I hope that you all understand. Really miss you guys so much :( 

I have been taking periodic breaks but they are usually spent shopping online. Oh make that window shopping online. How pathetic is that. Window shopping online. That reminds me, I have to make payment for the articles of cloth I bought today. But then again, I am not really sure if I should get them.


Both these tops! And I'm looking for a dusty pink skirt. Any suggestions? 

The desire to get into law school has never been as intense as the ones I had today. I know what I want to do with my life, I know where I want to go, I just need to get there. Please dear God, with 16 weeks left I will really need to up my game. All these pain I am going through right now, coupled with the fact that I have been the worst friend in the entire universe this year, needs to pay off. I am really sacrificing everything I can sacrifice, I need to reach this goal of mine. 

I have never wanted something so badly in my life so please please please dear God just give me this huge push forward. 

There's a whole lotta things that I will forgive

But I just can't take a liar

I was by your side till the very end

Till you pushed me into the fire

I tried to believe you but something is wrong

You won't look in my eyes, tell me what's going on 

It's you and me against the world

That's what you said, that's what you said

If you can't be honest with me

Then I'm afraid this is the end

Hurry up, hurry up

If you ever really cared about me

Tell the truth, give it up

You sound guilty 'cause you're stuttering

Now the seconds turn into minutes now

But you won't give me an answer

You can tell me this, you can tell me that

But don't say you don't remember

Cause I know you better than you know yourself

So don't say I'm crazy, I know very well

It's you and me against the world

That's what you said, that's what you said

If you can't be honest with me

Then I'm afraid this is the end

Hurry up, hurry up

If you ever really cared about me

Tell the truth, give it up

You sound guilty cause you're stuttering

 Want the pink loafers! (: (: 

And the second sandal! 

♥ Back to workk! I'm pretty pleased with my progress today! ♥