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Last blogged @ 8:03 PM  Today a friend sent me this message: I had an XRAY done today and they found you in my heart. The doctor said if they took you out, I would die because I cannot live without you. Don't want to ever lose you. Hahaha. Okay, fine its really cheesy right. But so sweet nonetheless <3 Haha. The past few days have been really crazy. Lots of crap happening but I'm learning to survive. I just hope all this would blow over soon. Its really very tiresome. Ilovemyfriendsilovemyfriendsilovemyfriends. I really dooo! <3<3<3 Damn, I miss my bestfriend ): Haven't spoken to her in like a million years. And LOWLIHUAN you too. Its like crisis amplified without your bestfriends ): AND THE TWIT TOO. ): SIGH. I miss you all so much! ): Okay anyway off to check up on uni stuff <3 Haha. Signing up for SATs. Keeping my options open (: But I don't really know what I want to do. Passion or not? If its going to be passion, I would have to give up on ambition (so to speak). In this world, is it even practical to pursue something you really love? Last blogged @ 9:47 PM  Today made me think about stuff but I think I should just leave it as that for now! Last blogged @ 11:11 AM  Had a good day yesterday (: Its been so long since we spent time together! Thanks for the jellybeans (: Met my best friend yesterday and we had so much fun too. Played the guitar and drums thing which I suck so badly at. I was basically omgawding the whole way. Hahaha. Then we went to play the bishybashy thing. Kinda cheated cos like 3 of us were playing the single player game. AND WE STILL LOST. So loser okay. It was quite scary cos like we had to watch the thing move up till it went past the fail stage so we could proceed to the next level. Hahaha. OMG. We were so noisy but its so much fun <3<3<3 Haha. I want to play it againn! I loved ytd <3 To you: Don't worry so much! I'll be here for you. Don't let any of those thoughts you told me ever fully engage your mind. Its not going to happen alright. We've been through so much I don't see how 1 year apart's going to make much difference. Take care <3 Last blogged @ 8:07 PM  Oh and, someone really awesome made me yummy gastronomic mushrooms for me at the expense of sleep <3 Loved it very much <3 Thanks dear <3 *3 squeezes* Last blogged @ 6:53 PM WEDDING DRESS Some say it's not over ‘till it’s over Guess this is really over now There's something I gotta say before I let you go Listen When you have a fight with him Sometimes you cry And feel sad and blue I become hopeful My heart aches secretly Then just a hint of your smile Can make feel fine again To keep you from figuring out how I feel about you Coz then we would drift apart I hold my breath, bite my lips Oh, please leave him and come to me Baby, please don’t take his hand Coz you should be my lady I've been waiting for you for so long Please look at me now When the music starts You will vow to spend The rest of your life with him How I prayed every night This day would never come The wedding dress you're wearing It's not me (next to you) Oh, the wedding dress you’re wearing, oh, no You never knew how I felt about you And I hated you so Sometimes I wished you would be unhappy Now I have no more tears left to cry When I’m by myself I talk to you like you're here I’ve felt so restless every night Maybe I’ve known all along this would happen I close my eyes and dream an endless dream Please leave him and come to me Baby, don’t take his hand when he comes to you Coz you should be my lady I've been waiting for you for so long Look at me now When the music starts You will vow to spend The rest of your life with him How I prayed every night This day would never come The wedding dress you're wearing It's not me (next to you) Oh, the wedding dress you’re wearing, oh, no Please be happy with him So that I can forget you Please forget how miserable I looked It's going to be unbearably hard for me For a long while to come Last blogged @ 6:50 PM  And this is how we do it <3 So, exactly a year has passed. Even though this year's march camp was meant for the juniors, I think I have taken away alot too. The past few days even with the crazyrunningaroundspore, chasingafterbuses (smth I detest doing), gettingdirtyandnotbeingabletobathetill1230inthemorning, seeingratsinthecanteen and sleepingat5am has been simply amazing. Really. It helped me re realize why I wanted so badly to join council. Helped me want to live the remaining time in council to the fullest. All of a sudden, I don't want to step down any longer. Really proud of you initiates <3 Last blogged @ 10:41 PM  This is my princess van! <3  This is what she likes! I'd say more, but most is private stuff. She's a super awesome girl and anyone who gets to spend time with her is super super lucky. I just wanna say that 3 squeezes alot dear =) ! Last blogged @ 7:58 PM  Saw this year's J3 get back their results and then suddenly everything hit me - At exactly this same time next year, we would have been told if we had triumphed out of this huge mess or joined the pits of the fallen. I feel as if I have been knocked back into reality and suddenly I'm really thankful I didn't go ahead with what I kinda wanted - ACJC. I guess VJ really got me grounded, or at least more grounded than I would have ever been. I know that nothing ever comes easy, as Vic has put it plainly, Victory favours those who take pains. OH GREAT. Seriously. This is quite terrible. Everything's rushing back to me so quickly, its just way too fast, this whole sudden realization of how everything's going to progress the coming year, of how much I have fallen short last year, has just hit me so hard, I'm practically knocked off balance. I guess I have always comprehended how important this year is going to be but it has never ever came throttling this way. I'm still a little glazed over. Given one wish, I would turn back the clock return to J1, make full use of my capabilites, start off on the right foot, get that freaking scholarship, not drop out of EXCO, get that degree in oral comm. GOSH VAN WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN DOING. I know what I need to do now. It will be different. Life is full of regrets, but I'm determined not to make this year one of them. To all my friends out there: We'll make it. Let's just accept harsh reality, and get on with life. This is probably going to be one of the more terrible years of our lives, but when we're through this hell hole, we can look back and say we have overcame. I'm sure that sense of achievement would be immense. All the way alright <3 I'll be here for you <3 Last blogged @ 1:21 AM  EXHAUSTED. NOT EVEN DONE WITH JAPAN. I need moral support now. But you're asleep and we kinda just quarreled. I should stop feeling so needy. Van, get a grip of your own life. Back to Japan, hitting the sack soon. My head's hurting like crap ): Feel like crying. Its one of those days :/ Last blogged @ 7:38 PM  The past few days have been mentally exhausting. HISTORY HAS SHIT LOAD TO MEMORISE AND THE NOTES ARE LIKE SO DIFVUIDVFV EVERYWHERE I'VE TO RECLASSIFY EVERYTHING. And well math is just being math. But I think I'm getting better at it. So I'm quite happy (: Econs has't been too much of a hassle. So I guess Econs for this CTs wouln't be a huge headache. Not that many graphs to draw. (AM I RELIEVED OR WHAT) I need to know how to write the topic sentences for the comparison poem thing!!!! My head hurts pretty terribly! :( Heat's not making it any better. OH WELL. I know the Lord will grant me strength. I'm counting on that (: Sometimes I just wonder where everything is heading. I'm a little afraid of what I'm doing now. I don't have that much complete faith/ confidence in ___ yet. I don't know how ___ do. I guess it will come but I wish it would come faster. At least that way I will know I did the right thing. Sometimes I look at __ and that one thought crosses my mind but I push it away. I guess its better not thinking about it that way. I know I will need to have confidence in ___ fast. Seeing that just made me question you. I will have faith? I don't like the way you have become. Its like you're trying to suck up to them. Its quite ICKY. Or at least thats how I feel. I don't know. Okay that was just a Checklist - STUDY - EAT - SLEEP - REMAIN SANE |
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