Hello dearest blog readers! I have been really busy and I'm like trying to sleep earlier so I have not been using the com! Hahaha. Anyway, this has been a crazy week. I do enjoy school. I really do! Haha. Its really fulfilling being back together with A12 <3<3<3 We're so crazy, I just love them to bits. Hahaha. Never fail to bring so much joy into my life.

Anyway, I got my 2010 planner! ITS LIKE HOT PINK. I LOVE IT OMG. SERIOUSLY. I LOVE MY NEW PLANNER VERY VERY MUCH. <3

Met JE today to talk. Catch up? Accountability? Something like that. I'm glad we met up. I needed to clear shit. And I needed someone totally unbiased to tell me what to do. I'm glad we had THAT talk too. Got me thinking about stuff and I pray everything works out. The whole reflection on 2009 was really good, it made me realised how much I have been falling short and how much more I was capable of achieving. I guess its true all that I planned out didn't fall into place because I lost sight of them along the way and that I may have like viewed it as something really terrible. But then again, the good thing is that I have managed to realise it, and it might not be all that late to start doing what I have to do and not just what I want to do (:

OKAY SO LIKE I WAS BEING ALL BRATTY THIS MORNING. So many things were just bothering me and I was so stressed (thats a different story, which I would like elaborate later) and then like more shit keeps happening. THE WORSE THING IS I CAN'T TELL EVERYONE COS LIKE I JUST CANT. So its like choking me and I felt like I was just going to crumble under the weight of everything. And I totally didn't want you to get worried (which you still eventually did) But anyway, I'm so incoherent just thinking about it. OKAY YOU KNOW WHAT. FORGET IT. I WILL PRETEND I REALLY HAVE A SINGLE BRAIN CELL AND NOT KNOW ANYTHING. Friends, if you don't get this paragraph, its okay. ITS JUST RANDOM SENTENCES FLYING THROUGH MY HEAD AND I'M LIKE HAVING DIFFICULTY PIECING THEM TOGETHER PROPERLY.

So here's the stressful thing:
I just feel so frustrated you don't believe I can do it. Do you know how it feels when I'm here trying to tell you that I'm totally and perfectly capable of doing it but I just need the time (ITS HOW I WORK) and you refuse to give me the time. Using the reason that I don't have a natural flair for math. OKAY TYVM. I KNOW THAT. I'm not denying it. But I know myself well enough. If I think its too much, I will gladly listen and do what I need to! I don't need you harping on my back pressurizing me. It makes me feel so BIYHBVIEHBVEIBVREVOBREVOROLV ROFBV ORL. I JUST CANT BREATHE AND IT AFFECTS ME SO MUCH.

OKAY. I'm done ranting.
THIS WEEK ENDED WELL <3 I'm happy!

OH. 1 thing I realised throughout this whole talk was the inability to fully surrender. Its kinda like I would rather be in control and know what's happening then to fully trust and just let God lead. So I pray that I will be able to just surrender and not fear what I do not know (:


Helloo yellow bellow yvonneee <3<3<3

Thanks for the taking the liberty to blog! Hahahaha. Keep this dead thing alive when I'm like trying to become a mugger. Hahahaha.

Love you rawry!

Attempt to revive.

Hi.
I'm here to blog on behalf of a mugger who's too busy either having tuition/council/studying/smsing to bother about this blog nor tumblr. Since I don't really know what's happening anyw, I shall tell all of you the biggest joke of the year.

AJ'S AUDITORIUM BLACKED OUT DURING ECONOMICS LECTURE TODAY.

Well we've now already gone through a flood, twice of power failure all around school, and now a blackout. Next would probably be like a block collapsing or something.

Laugh all the rich schools, laugh.

What's even funnier is, they didn't let us off early. Instead, they told us to flip out our phone and use the hp light to continue lecture?! INNOVATIVE MUCH. They should seriously consider teaching wilderness survival studies or something.

Kay signing off.

Zeeroar.

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These past few days have been really awesome <3 sweet as cupcakes <3 Hahahaha. Okay. Anyway, apart from that. JC Camp has really been interesting. Never felt this connected and its as if I can feel that someone's understanding me (: Well, I guess since R papers have already started I shan't talk about it. I will do my best for God and myself the rest of the year (: I'M A J2. I'M A J2. I'M A J2.

TODAY WAS REALLY FUN. Spent some alone time with a monster. Hahaha. But it was really really good. I walked Botanical Gardens okayyy! Hahaha. Its a pretty place. And omg, I saw this really cool flower with like furry like leaves and its pink! Hahaha. I LIKE IT (:

Cell outing/bonding/J2 Farewell at settler's cafe and my place soon after. Haha. Settler's was not too bad. But the first time I went there with Yvonne, Shernice and Charlene was much better. Hahaha. I HAD AN AWESOME DAY TODAY (:

I JUST LOGGED INTO VJMAIL AND THE FIRST THING I SAW WAS 'DEAR JC2 STUDENTS'. I was still thinking they sent it wrongly because the last time I remembered I was still a J1. Then it hit me! ZOMG. THE MAIL'S CORRECT. I'M REALLY J2. OMG. I SHOULD HAVE GOTTEN RETAINED.

OKAY I KNOW THIS IS SUPER UNCOOL OF ME TO BE BLOGGING SO MANY TIMES IN A DAY. BUT CAN YOU BELIEVE IT ITS LIKE 2010. LIKE 2010. YOU KNOW 2-0-1-0. LIKE I'M A FREAKING J2. AND LIKE A'S ARE ACTUALLY REAL NOW. AND LIKE AFTER A'S I'M ACTLY GOING TO GO TO UNI. AND THEN OUT TO WORK. OMG OMG. I THINK I'M FREAKING OUT. I DONT WANT TO GROW UP. I WANT PETER PAN.