The caving of the hall's roofs.That disbelief. The unfounded calmness. The tears. The disbelief. The humiliation. The crashing of my world.

It has haunted me for an incredibly long time but in 2 weeks time when I retake my A levels, the same thing isn't going to happen. I need to make up for the mistakes I have made last year, and keep my eye on the prize.

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Doing the best I can but trusting God. Btw, its only 2047 and I am so dead beat and it's not like I studied alot today. 

Things I have to complete by the end of the new week.

Math: 3 more math papers

Lit: Read/Annotate/Analyse Taming of the Shrew, Disgrace and Richard the Third AGAIN

SEA History: 2 more SBQs, 3 essays on Economic Developement, 3 essays on Political Structures, Read all the Theme 1 essays

Intl History: Memorise Origins, KW and UN. 

Econs: Memorise all my micro stuff again, 2 more case studies and all the past year trade essays

GP: ACJC 2011 Prelim Paper

Okay I can do this!!!

Dear God, please sustain me :'(

A levels are just about 2 and a half weeks away and I am honestly very relieved. Very thankful too for the people who have walked this tedious journey with me, providing me with the comfort, support and encouragement I so desperately need. 

However, to say that relief is the only thing I am feeling now would be an understatement, because fear is also one of the other emotions. But through this short post, I would just like to impart something of extreme value that I have learnt through quiet time a few days back. 

I have learnt that feeling fearful is really just part and parcel of the emotions we as humans have. And most importantly, feeling fearful, does NOT make us weak. The only difference however, is that we should not let fear overwhelm us. Simply because fear is the enemy of confidence and that is what all of us need in our lives.

So what I am trying to put across is this. Being fearful doesn't make us cowards. We are cowards only if we run. And maybe if we have been allowing this feeling to control and determine our destiny perhaps it is time to regain control of our own lives because the truth is that fear happens to everybody. In fact, it is what we do in spite of that fear makes the difference between victory or defeat in our lives. 

 I made the pastry myself! Is that not pure skill!

Pancakes made from scratch! :D Not some batter hahaha. 

Mummy's birthday was on 11 October and because of her digestion issue I couldn't bake a cake for her so I made apple pie in replacement of a cake and pumpkin pancakes for her brekkie! :D Don't they look absolutely phenomenal hahaha. Okay fine maybe not that phenomenal but I think the pancakes look somewhat tumblr worthy hahaha. Had dinner at Sentosa Golf Club Il lido and the food was pretty spectacular. Desserts blew me away, I have a penchant for desserts. Time spent with the youngest brother always keeps me happy he is such a cutie pie <3

Dinner was supposed to be light. Like because we decided to share we assumed it wasn't going to be that filling but alas, we were gravely wrong haha. Walked out feeling too satisfied. Can too much of a good thing be a bad thing haha. 

 Saw a peacock on our way in! COOL OR WHAT haha. 

 I think I look quite nice in these 2 pics so even though my brother isn't looking at the camera this is going up. He is my baby cutie pie forever hahaha. 

 Mummy and I! Happy Birthday mummy dearest <3

 Pardon my unglam moment apparently that cutie pie brother of mine doesn't know how to take photos properly hahaha. Then again the focus of this pic is supposed to be the smexy Porsche ;) 

 Daddy and I! (:

3 more weeks till A levels and I haven't been working as hard as I did before prelims! Just got back all the grades and I must say even though I am not ecstatic over the results, I am comforted, somewhat relieved, partially happy over the progress I have made across the board and that I can roughly say I am on the right track. So, really thank you God <3


Just have to really focus and get my game together, make the last 3 weeks count because as Vic puts it, this is my year, my game, and I am the star.

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Love love love this song. This week has been pretty hectic. Really wanting to get my grades back but teachers are not done with the marking. Really praying that I will at least do decently well. 

Leighton Meester, effortlessly gorgeous.

Blake Lively as the face of Chanel. As much as I love her, I think Keira does a way better job. 

Chanel represents classy feminine strength, something that Blake isn't that able to embody :/ 

Compare with the one by Keira (Below)