I feel like I am stuck in this cycle of mundane living.

Have been teaching my invisible class Econs for the past 2 days but I feel so insecure. I am just so damn frustrated with everything right now. Feels like I am doing revision at a pace slower then turtles in a traffic jam ploughing through gelatin. This whole prelims thing is weighing me down so terribly I am utterly horrified. I secretly do know that I can count on God because He will tide me through everything. But there are these bugging questions I have. What if my best is not enough and what if what I think is my best actually isn't my best. What happens if I do not realise I have not been pushing myself hard enough. So what do I then. Give up? I am by no means a quitter, but this is just about becoming one of the worst times of my life. I hate uncertainity and I feel so freaking tired but I can't rest because I am not done with my revision. And I am not even talking about for all my papers. Just for the 3 papers on wednesday. Ugh. Really hating this shit right now. A promise to myself, not going to go to bed till I am done with the next 4 freaking chapters. Sorry for the profanity, but all these are seriously way over my head. Got to get back to my hell hole. 

Ugh I just remembered, positive attitude van. I will have to try. And trust. Goodness gracious me. 

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Y'nno what? It feels so good to be able to rant and I am going to do this the right way. I will have faith and I will believe. All I can do right now is to focus and do my best, and whatever the outcome may be at least I know I haven't shortchanged myself and the people who have supported me so greatly this whole year. Got to head back to the books (: