As the days pass all these studying gets increasingly difficult. There is no school pressure to push me on, there are no classmates for me to have a bench mark/feel the pressure with/get reminded of the days left till prelims and especially A levels, there are no classmates to spur each other on. There is noone,  but me and that makes studying for A levels as a private candidate increasingly difficult. 

You know, it is not losing the way to the final destination which scares me, but losing the meaning behind why I want to reach that exact point that scares me to death. Point being, there is only 2 weeks to prelims, 15 weeks to A levels I can't lose focus, I have to remember where all these are going to, why I so desperately want to reach that goal and why I chose to retake A levels. I need to have it firmly engraved into that brain of mine to push myself to the limit. Because only then will I be able to say that at least, this year, I have not let my parents, the friends who have supported me and myself down. 

I have already worked so hard the past 8 months. Simply have another 12 more weeks till it begins and I can really get my life back. 12 more weeks to a bright future; sounds like a pretty decent exchange!

I need the strength. I know my focus is dwindling so please, pray for me. Both my spirit and heart has to be willing. :/ Back to ASEAN SBQs :/

*Positive Attitude Van*