Dear Lord, 

This is getting increasingly difficult. I can't breathe properly. Its like there's this incessant nagging and annoyance plaguing my heart. Ugh. I know that I'm reallly going to trust you. Trust that you will have the best plans for me. Trust that you know what is best for me. Dear Lord, please help me, it is simply so tough, too tough. I know I made the decision. Dearest God, I'm really incoherent right now. All I want is a peace of heart, peace of mind, so many things are worrying me right now and I can't deal with it. My heart just feels estranged. You know the twisted feeling that leaves your soul feeling pitless and empty? That's exactly how I'm feeling right now. Stone cold. Empty. Hollow. All because I saw that. Help me overcome what my heart thinks is impossible. Dear Lord, I am really willing to submit to you and I really do want to listen. I have complete faith that you will restore me completely, complete faith that you will bring me through this. But dearest Father, please let this faith that I have in you to be adequately translated into my actions. Because talk of faith alone is of absolute no use. I really need it :( :( :( Thank you Lord Jesus, Amen