Somewhere beyond this, I hope I can find the words to say

The past few days have been nothing but awful. To the dearest people who have been by my sides encouraging me, regardless if it is to walk out of this home or to stick with them through everything, thank you so much. The love you have poured out unto me has been overflowing I wouldn't know what to do without you guys (: Today was honestly no exception, so sorry to the friends of mine whom I saw in church but chose to ignore, it's really not because I'm stuck up or something, but you know the feeling of wanting to close up and just be invisible, yeah, that's how I kinda wanted to be like today. Thank you suxin, and chloe, for having been with me today (: For that short period of time, it semi transported me back to the times when we were all back in cedar and having so much fun (: I thought my family situation was pretty messed up, and I was all ready to just give up. I mean it is really tiring being that daughter that has to be the mediator, toning down what my brothers say, placing emphasis on what my parents want. It is vey emotionally daunting to have to do this almost everyday. And if you ask me to just not care, you really don't know me well enough. This is my family, these are my parents, regardless of how unreasonable they are, the love they have given me has amounted to such great depths, how can I really dishonor them. Anyway back to what I was saying, I thought this family was really gone just until about 2 hours ago, when my parents and I finally managed to settle things in a way I never thought possible. Thank you friends, who have blessed me with your prayers, and really, thank you God for bringing this family through another emotional period. It would have definitely been impossible without you. And we're going out as a family later (: I really need peace in my life, and I am really very weary, please let this happiness and peace stay.