For a split second last night before heading to bed, this thought flashed through my head: 'What I had, and what could possibly have been.' I don't really know why but all the little moments we shared started popping into my head, and I began questioning myself 'what if I had let it come to pass?'

But then again, I know I am not ready yet. I know that I haven't managed to completely let go of all that I had last year and that would not be fair for you. Plus there is the upcoming A levels. And, most importantly, you were already unofficially (?) attached and I would never do that to any girl. And of course, not forgetting the fact that my bff would kill me. (Honestly, I really thank my BFF for talking to me the other day, reminding me that I was treading on VERY dangerous ground. Thanks Yvonne Ng Ling Rong and Yee Ling Yu. )

I guess I did a pretty good job concealing how I felt because I am really sure you never knew. To be honest, telling me/ hinting not so subtlety that you wanted to break off with her and not know how exactly to do it really did scare me.  Especially that night when we on the phone and I just went on and on about how our friends were viewing the 'friendship' we had, and how ridiculous that thought was, only to be met with your silence scarily confirmed that they had been right all this while.

But I guess it is really bridge under water right now, because I have made the decision to only be really good friends with you and I think this time, I really have made a sensible decision to trust God because I know this is what He would want me to do (:

Okay honestly I have completely no idea why I am even putting this on my blog, but I guess I just needed to get this out and hopefully this nagging annoyance stops bothering me. 

Econs case studyyy :D Can anyone tell me why an appreciation of the Yuan will lower US trade deficit?? Drop me a text or smth. Help is very much appreciated.

Oh oh and I really have something most amazing to share. I had BSF yesterday and the discussion was so amazingly apt for my current situation now. I shall blog about it later when I am having a break (: (: