THIS IS THE ONLY PICTURE I LOOK DECENTLY NICE HERE. I'M SO INTENSELY SAD ALRIGHT. I LOOK UTTERLY AND INCREDIBLY HORRENDOUS IN TODAY'S PICTURES. WORSE STILL WITH MAURICE PRO CAM. OHMY. PLEASE SAVE ME SOMEBODY. WHERE ARE MY PRETTY PICTURES.

But anyway! THAT ASIDE. Haha, today was really awesome. Lotsa fun and getting to know people better. I guess mummy's right, older people are definitely more intelligent and interesting to talk to (: Best fun I had in agesss! :D Its really nice talking to people with the same interests!

The most important highlight of the day however, was during morning worship when the older people prayed for the younger ones, meaning to say the jc people! This woman told me three things. And honestly I'm pretty confused by it. The first thing she told me was to be bold with the people around me, especially my family members, which struck a chord within me in light of what had happened the night before :/ Then she went on, telling me that God wanted me to build cells, which really confused me because I thought my calling wasn't for cell ministry. I thought my calling was for missions, prayer and that kind of stuff. The last thing she mentioned really threw me off balance. She prayed and told me that God wanted me to know that I would meet the right one and when I did, I would know it. The thing about this is that after having gotten so hurt by the last relationship, dating per say hasn't actually been on my mind. The thought of having to let a guy into my heart, making myself vulnerable and able to get hurt simply scares me. Having to hear this from  her really jolted me and I guess I was just to surprise, but nonetheless thankful of God's timely reminder. What really shocked me was that I am way too young to get married but yet God had led her to telling me such a thing. I don't know what to say, but I am really thankful God has answered my questions. Really thankful.

Today was basically magical, bonding with people who understood the difficulties in dealing with certain situations, appreciating art and history. I mean honestly, its been such a long time since I actually was able to hold such real conversations with no ulterior motives with a guy. And honestly, I appreciate that alot more. I mean senseless conversations are definitely fun, but too much of that bores me. I mean I'm not stimulated intellectually/mentally.

I can see that God's presence is really alive in me now. I feel that everything I do/say is centered more on more on Christ. For once, after 2 years, I feel as if I'm genuinely drawing closer to him, waiting in his presence, hungering for his word, understanding how all these can be applied to real life. I'm thankful mummy 'forced' me to enter bible school because I can honestly feel myself becoming a stronger and better person.

It scares me to see myself blogging so much about God and all. Its not that I don't want to talk about him. But I'm not perfect, I make mistakes and I'm afraid people will judge me because of that. I really don't want to be the kind of Christian where I talk so much about how wonderful God is, but I don't let it shine through my actions. Its just a great deal of responsibility. And perhaps recognizing that it is that a big deal would mean that I would be more careful with my actions.

PULLING OUT TEETH TOMORROW. PLEASE SAVE ME. IT HURTS.