I am really very very very very angry right now. WHY DOES SHE ALWAYS HAVE TO SPOIL EVERYTHING. Is it possible that she can, perhaps for a tiny minute second, stop thinking the whole world is against her and think for others instead?? Why Lord! I am so upset. Everyday it doesn't get any easier. I don't know why. But nowadays, I just keep feeling so frustrated Lord. I know what I'm supposed to do, but I don't know how to. I need to figure things out within myself before I do anything. Or is that what you meant when you said seize the day, do it today and not tomorrow? I don't know Lord. Can you please help me. I am just so caught up with my emotions now. And I am absolutely clueless. I just feel like screaming at her but I know I can't because that would be disobedience. UGH. At times like these, I wished I could be like my brother. Why in the world am I such a coward!!! :( Help me Lord, annoit my lips and help control my temper. I don't want to end up lashing out. 

Amen.