Saw this year's J3 get back their results and then suddenly everything hit me - At exactly this same time next year, we would have been told if we had triumphed out of this huge mess or joined the pits of the fallen. I feel as if I have been knocked back into reality and suddenly I'm really thankful I didn't go ahead with what I kinda wanted  - ACJC. I guess VJ really got me grounded, or at least more grounded than I would have ever been. I know that nothing ever comes easy, as Vic has put it plainly, Victory favours those who take pains. OH GREAT. Seriously. This is quite terrible. Everything's rushing back to me so quickly, its just way too fast, this whole sudden realization of how everything's going to progress the coming year, of how much I have fallen short last year, has just hit me so hard, I'm practically knocked off balance. I guess I have always comprehended how important this year is going to be but it has never ever came throttling this way. I'm still a little glazed over. Given one wish, I would turn back the clock return to J1, make full use of my capabilites, start off on the right foot, get that freaking scholarship, not drop out of EXCO, get that degree in oral comm. GOSH VAN WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN DOING. I know what I need to do now. It will be different.