i think this has been really terrible. i hope this episode blows over really quickly. i just feel that everything has been really strange this week. we haven't even be communicating properly. but maybe, its for the better?i just wonder what this is all about. you know, why keep me beside you? why do that when you want something else? i just question my position on this whole thing. is it just emotional attachment? you know, i really don't want you to feel obligated to have to do certain things for me. it makes me feel so irritated and unwanted. its not like you don't know me, if you really want to do something for me, do it because you want to not because you have to. not that i'm saying you have been doing out of obligation, but if you have, i rather you not. i can jolly well do things myself. i don't need to be dependent on you or anybody else for that matter. or maybe its just me being all confused. again. OH WELL. at least i'm done ranting! (: