What with all the press releases/press kit/media invites I had to churn out at record time as well as all my starringSMU PR stuff, the past week has been extremely stressful. Had to cancel on quite a few friends because of these stuff and I was feeling really down because of other stuff that happened but I am so blessed to have K, Kaur and Andrea in my life to tide me through this period.

Super yummy truffle fries. 

 Foie Gras 

After having been stressed out by my mother over the weekends, a good break was more than well received. Considering how the company I had was the best, I remembered not wanting the night to end.

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The Burger Bar 

Far East Plaza, Basement

Victor's Kitchen

Sunshine Plaza 

Was having a meeting in school today and I was surprised with Dim Sum from Victor's Kitchen :D Not too sure why it was the case but the Siew Mai tasted very different haha. 

This week has been tough but I am very thankful for the people who have been with me as I made it through the end of the week. It wouldn't have been possible without you guys and without making it sound too cliche or anything I am so lucky to have you all in my life. I really appreciate it very much. 

Feeling really quite sad, but maybe I should get used to this feeling. Maybe this is how being supportive is supposed to make me feel.

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I need to pen this down. This feeling of unmistakable disappointment, overwhelmed with sadness, intense maybe not. But disappointment, yes. Is your club that important to you that the only day you are free from work you cannot even afford to spend it with me? And what is the point of wanting to take leave if you can't even spend time with me on a Public Holiday. The rest are not attached but you are and you see no difference? Do you know that I care not for those large expressions of self sacrifice - taking leave when you should be at work - but for times like these, the quiet unassuming presence of you and I together, after an intense week.

Being supportive. That's another problem. I thought it was something we were going to do together.

You weren't even serious about getting our present. I'm just supposed to keep waiting till it's convenient. What does that even mean?
I feel better.
Life goes on.

 The Skyline from MBS (: 

 The birthday girl in her hot pink dress! (: 

So thankful for Sherm and Andrea ♥
Even though we may not meet all that often, what I find most heartwarming is the knowledge that we can count on each other when things get tough.

Hi guys!! So Summer is finally here! I can't believe I am actually done with my first year of university. My grades are nowhere near spectacular; I am still experimenting with various study methods - my route learning way of studying gets me nowhere - but my time in SMU has been nothing short of amazing. So! This is my first summer ever, (fine, it is just us SMU kids trying to act all cool and call school holidays summer, but, please indulge me for the time being), and I am going to return to all my first loves - Reading, Baking, Community Service. 

 Despite the amount of time it took to be done, I thoroughly enjoyed baking this cheesecake for the one I love with all my heart. Really hoping that whoever chances upon this recipe will like it as much! 

Till the next recipe/next blog post/next update/next time I can get my lazy self to do an update. 

xx

Tell me, am I right? At the end of the day, you are alone, with no one by your side, but your shadow. Even then, is it always there? After all, isn't life just about being independent? Knowing that the one person you can count on will never fail you - yourself. 

Finals has been one of the hardest times to get through throughout my entire year in SMU and I feel as if I have been largely on my own. What do I feel about that? Just a few days back, it was intense frustration and sadness. Really intense. But right now, it has reached the point where it no longer matters. 

I share my thoughts with you in the hope that we will always be standing along the same line, sharing the same heartbeat, but there is a limit to that and sometimes, it reaches a point when I just know that that will never happen. It is not me giving up trying to explain things to you. More than ever, I want to continue explaining; but if only you would really listen, with your heart and not just base everything on pure logic.

I am just so tired. Exhausted physically, mentally. I just need you to indulge me, just for a little while.  Hear me out, know what I really want, and work things through with me. 

I love you. 

I need to remember who I am studying for; myself and my 2 brothers. To get them out of this God forsaken place. (Literally) 

How can anyone be like this? I don't get it. I really don't. I may love the both of you alot, but trust me, you are a living example, of how I do not want to ever be. 

You may not be bad people, but the 2 of you, will never be my role models. 

I know this is a really terrible way to start the very first post of the year but I NEED TO GET WORK DONE. I have effectively wasted my entire weekend. I am too well equipped in this whole running away from Econs thing. I need to get back to doing it. Go van, last few weeks. I need to do this. 

On a sidenote, I have decided to stop rebelling and attend church/cell properly. 

It's an unexplainable feeling but today, in church, before I left, the guy who says the benediction  said something along the lines of 'You are what you are committed to' and somehow, that struck a chord within me. 

Heart hurts, so much grief, what should I do? 

Blind Pilot- 3 Rounds and a Sound

'They're playing our song

Can you see the lights?

Can you hear the hum?

Of our song

I hope they get it right

I hope we dance tonight

I was sleeping

My eyes were dark

Til you woke me

And told me that opening

is just the start'

Bird and the Bee- How deep is your love

'I know your eyes in the morning sun

I feel you touch me in the pouring rain

And the moment that you wander far from me

I wanna feel you in my arms again

How deep is your love

I really need to learn

cause we're living in a world of fools

Breaking us down

When they all should let us be

We belong to you and me

I believe in you

You know the door to my very soul

You're the light in my deepest darkest hour'

The Civil Wars - Dance me to the End of Love

'Dance me to your beauty with a burning violin

Dance me through the panic till I'm safely gathered in

Lift me like an olive branch and be my homeward dove

And dance me to the end of love

Yeah

Dance me to the end of love'

Beautiful things come in pairs <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">